Not a good time

Sorry for the lack of posting. The month of March to present has not been good. Well, it started going down hill when my dad passed away Jan 4th 2007, and I think everything started surfacing in March. I don't believe I have come to terms with my dads death... I don't even know if I can. It's so painful I put my thoughts and feelings to the side and stuff it... numb it out. Then there is my job. I don't even know where to begin. My job has gotten so stressful, it's causing high anxiety on top of already high anxiety. I have been out on short term disability since March 6th. I am on medicine for depression and anxiety, have been for years. Apparently something isn't working. I have had my medicines changed around. Maybe it's the job I am doing, Maybe it's not for me... Hmm... time will tell. Even more great news!! When I weighed in at JC tonight I gained 3.7 pounds. I only worked out 2 times for 30 mins each this last week. So I hope for a better week this next week.