Overwhelmed...

I am not good at blogging… I am not good with words… So when I am feeling overwhelmed, worried, stressed and anxious my thougths and feelings run wildly through my head and I can't seem to organize them enough to get them out on paper or on this blog. It becomes one big jumbled and scattered mess. I then get overwhelmed and I tell myself "oh just forget it" and sweep it under the run. But right now I am about to bust, so I am going to do my best. Here goes...
I had mentioned in a previous post that my daughter is getting married in Aug. I am happy for them, but also concerned. I'm not going to get into a lot of details, but let me explain a little bit. She... They... He... Oh gosh, I don't even know where to start… Aug 1st she is going to get on an airplane (for the first time) and she is going to fly to another country, and that is where the wedding will take place. Of course we won’t be able to attend, for one it's in another country, for another we can't afford to go. I will get to see pictures and videos of the wedding. My heart is heavy and broken because I can't be there with my baby girl. I can't really talk a whole lot about it with her dad, because he doesn't support her relationship with this guy.
I got to go… I can’t do this right now. Maybe later.

Out of my comfort zone!

I weighed in last Saturday and lost 4.3 lbs! I was so happy! Since reaching my goal in April I haven't been exercising all that much, so last week I stepped it up, (it sure paid off). Yesterday it was so hot out, but I went on my walk anyway. Yesterday my daughter and I went to Glazed Expressions. It's where you pick out your pottery and your paints & then once it is done they fire it for you. I thought to myself ok that sounds easy enough!!! So after looking through all their pottery I picked out a tall coffee mug, got my paints and brushes, sat down and just looked at it. I had no idea of what I wanted on it; I went through several books for any kind of ideas. I came across these really cute lady bugs. They had adorable little shoes on and some were holding flowers and some had purses, (so cute). You would think I could sketch those little buggers onto my mug. You wouldn't believe how many times I sketched them out. I had pencil marks and smudges all over my mug. LOL I was so nervous, and I was so afraid I would mess up. The lady at Glazed Expressions told me I was thinking too much, to let go and just paint. so I did. I finally managed to get them on there and painted, but to me it looks awful. We didn't get done, so tonight we are going back to finish up. My daughter picked out a heart shaped box. Hers looks fabulous! I think next time I will be more comfortable with it.
We live on the third floor of our appartment and for the second time in we had a raccoon on our balcony. I thought that to be very strange! Has anyone else experienced the same?

Long over due update!!

Oh boy, it’s been so long I don’t even know where to begin.
Well… we went on our trip. We had a fantastic time! The scenery was absolutely breath taking. We got a lot of pictures, but pictures can’t do god’s beauty justice!
I mentioned in my last entry that I had another challenge and I never said what it was!!
Well of course it has all to do with FOOD! I was worried I would over eat and or all the wrong stuff and then I would come back to find out I had gained a huge amount of weight! Well, I gained 3 pounds, not as much as I had thought I had. Every since our trip I have been struggling to stay on track!! The last few weeks have been a big challenge; I seem to be very focused on any and all food. It’s slowly getting better. I have been slacking on my exercise as well, so I have been trying to get motivated for that as well. *sigh*. For this week I did get six 30 min walks done! Yayyyyy My daughter has been a big help in getting me out and walking.
She is also trying to slim down and get in shape, as she is getting married in Aug!! WOW, my baby girl is getting married in less than a month!! I am so very happy for them, but sad, because my baby girl is all grown up!
As I stated in previous post, I was very unhappy at the job I was at. I didn’t think the job was for me. So I let go of it and am currently looking for a new job. Haven’t had much luck yet, but I am still looking. I am sure when I start working; my mind will not be on food 24/7!
Sorry it has taken me so long to post any updates, I just have had a lot going on lately.
Leave me a comment sometime, let me know you’re here and how you’re doing!
Got to get to bed its 5:24 am (I haven’t been to bed yet), and I have my weight in at Jenny Craig at 12:30 pm today!!!

Going on a road trip!!

Wrote this on: Wednesday, May 16th 2007

I have been trying to find a balance in calories since I reached my goal. The first 2 weigh-ins after I reached my goal, I gained just a little bit. This week I stayed the same. Which made me happy, but I have another challenge coming up starting tomorrow. My husband and I are going on vacation for the first time in our 24 years of marriage!!! It’s off to North Carolina tomorrow morning. We will be gone for about a week. His family lives there. We haven’t been back there since we got married there 24 years ago!
Gotta get to bed it is 1:38 am!!